Sweet memories... 回忆

Schooling life is usually the most pleasureable moment. Now I grasp about it. I enjoyed my uni life real real much. I get genuine frens, true frens there.
Heavenly father, I believe in Angels, the kind that heaven sends. I'm surrounded by angels, but, I call them friends. Thanks god for the angels around me. In Jesus Christ name I pray. Amen...Thanks gals. The memories always right here in my mind, heart and soul. *Hugz*

Year 2004

during our mouse dissection practical class..argh, i still able to recall the smell of the ratz!

Year 2005
The circle of life

Year 2006
Gals that addicted to Korean cuisine..haha. Since year 2006, korean restaurants in Ampang started to become our dinner spot! Yeah, we love food, the great one!

Year 2007Right after our final year first semester examination..Having fun again while celebrating the angels' birthday. Look at the word. That's da name our lecturer gave to us - A.N.G.E.L T.E.A.M :)

Year 2008

The most memorable moment. Year 2008 is the year we having alot of tears due to our separation, and this is so called the True Friendship. Miss u gal real much!

Bear in mind that: Friendship is the angels that guide you throughout your life.

The lovely creation for the movie Friendship. Love. Angels. Yeah, we have the quote, our movie, our trailer, our team-T and song for our FRIENSHIP!

Love, Jasey

呐喊

此时此刻，心中有许多纳闷，
好想一次过好好地抛开。
自己的无知与懵懂， 单纯与傻气，
导致我恨我自己。
一切的误会，我不想给予任何的解释与借口。
由得它去吧。
好懊恼哦！好恨如此狼狈不抗，
好恨自己不知如何开口。
算了吧，累了，倦了，也哭了。
好想眼前有一大片蔚蓝的海洋，
让我畅游；
好想眼前有无限的啤酒，
让我暂时忘了一切，饮个痛快；
好想拥有自己的空间，
让我不必躲着痛哭。
回到现实吧!
未来由我改变，我必实现我的梦!

人的记忆并非如电脑般，
按了删除一键就可忘了一切。
珍惜眼前所有的，爱你所爱的。

I'm always strong!

Love, Jasey

A long night

It’s been quite a couple of weeks since my last post about my life, my thought and my emotion here. Sigh. Time passed. Everything changed in such a short period of time.

A long night. It’s true. Yesterday night is such a protracted night for me. What I can say about yesterday? Tears, suffers, unbreathable, insomnia, loneliness. All these five words can be depicting the whole night. I’m speculating how come the tears always drop in at night. Thousands of words I wanted to share, but i always failed to find a good listener. I hatred myself for don’t even want to share a word with others, even my closest wan, which is my family. Sigh. I’ve been locked everything to myself for years. That’s why, the night is constantly long for me, as I need to cram the holes that found in it.

I hate when the dusk arrived, as the sun is hidden, the mask is slacken off. My dear angels. U gals don’t know how much I love you and miss you all. During the school life, you gals always be there for me, and give me a hug whenever I need it, without any reason. Now I’m all alone, and I don’t even can find a sincere friend from current life. As usual, I’m still always with a smile on, having own sweet nature. But, heartache. Promise myself, I want to be more independent from now on.

YES, I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE!

Jasey - Life changed -

Annoying things to do on an elevator

Oh gosh..I read about this in a website recently...and i cant stop amused by the words there...have a look guys....!

Annoying things to do on elevator:-
1) crack open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask "Got enough air in there?"
2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
3) when arriving at your floor, GRUNT and STRAIN to yank the doors open, then act as if you're embarrassed when they open themselves.
4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.
5) MEOW occasionally.
6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: "You're one of THEM" - and back away slowly
7) say -DING at each floor.
8) say "I wonder what all these do?" And push all the red buttons.
9) make EXPLOSION noises when anyone presses a button.
10) STARE, GRINNING at another passenger for a while, then announce: "I have new socks on."
11) when the elevator is silent, look around and ask: "Is that your beeper?"
12) try to make PERSONAL CALL on the emergency phone.
13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: "This is my personal space."
14) when there's only one other person in the elevator, TAP them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn't you.
15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.
17) HOLD the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say "Hi Greg, How's your day been?"
18) drop a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: "That's mine!"
19) bring a camera and TAKE PICTURES of everyone in the lift.
20) PRETEND you're a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the Passengers.
21) SWAT at flies that don't exist.
22) call out "Group hug" then enforce it.

Have fun!

Love, Jasey

Not to be enthusiastic, but scrutinize carefully

22nd of July, 2008 - Tuesday

Life changing, when the status of a "children" to "adult", same as from "student" to an "employee". Stepping into the society make me be taught alot, and on the other hand, make me be au fait with myself more. I know about my weakness since young, and sometime, my weakness also my forte. Stubborn. Yes, definiteyly I am. Stubbonr to get what I want, stubborn in studies to achieve best results, stubborn in making everything brilliant. I hate the word of "lose". That's Jasey.

Since young, I've strong assertive in winning whatever I intended to. I still remember, in kindergarten, I get the third place during my exam, and my mom said this, "Good work, but try harder to get the second place next time". From that on, I've disciplined myself in studies. I'm neither a bookworm nor booklover, and just putting effort prior to exam. To my amzement, I still able to maintain it. Because of what my parent said to me in kindergarten, I've tried whatever I can, in arts, in story telling, in essays, etc etc.

After high school, I've been confused for choosing the field to further my studies. Design or Science. Since I'm the only child among the siblings who take science line in high school, of course my parent hope Jasey to be a "sciencetist". Okay. obey it. 4 years of studies in KL make me grew up alot. I did put much endeavor, and at last, I get the rewards. Greatful. Even my family also glad for what I've achieved. But? Result doesn't mean anything. i realized when study life defunct.

Stepping into the society is a totally different thing that I've ever met in my life. Before deciding to quit my studies, I ever think to furthe rit abroad. But right after I've graduated. I learned. In this moment, I started for my career to gain some experience before furthering my studies in next few years. I've been employed by a good company, as my superior does really take care of me. Though my division of the company is new, but I do get pleasure from it. My superior share so many things in her life with me. She never forces me to limit myself in the company for the whole life. Contrary, she asks me to gain experience here, and when the time is right, she encourage me to explore the world. THat's a good idea, instead. I still ever think, after my degree, I should further to master, then phD, and lastly, become a lecturer that can earn alot. But, do I really enjoy in giving lecture? Nope. Definitely nope. I hate teaching. That's why, I'm aware now. I know, become a lecturer will gain wealth, But, I grasp, I wouldn't enjoy such life. i dont have the passion in teachin, but i love to do researches. That's why, at last, I've make up my mind. Even though I've no idea how long I'm going to work in the company, but at least, in this moment, I'm in it.

As stated, not to be ethusiastic, but observe every step. Observe yourself, what you want, plan for the future, and at last, make the best decision that's available. I cant say that my current decision will be the best, but, at least, I'M NOT REGRET, and I'm enjoying. That's the best way of life. Isn't it?

Love, Jasey -Be strong, be firm-

Always be here in my heart

5th of April, 2008 - Saturday

This is specially dedicated to the angels that escorting my life in these 4 years...Chooi, Chris, Hoey, Mei, Mun, Ru Shan and Ying....

It's been 4 year since our first met. Though it sounds abit long time ago, but everything happened just like within few seconds. I cant force the time to halt, I cant pause it, and I just can do nothing...da sadness in my mind, da sorrow that I felt, the loath in my heart, and damelancholy that accompanying me for this few days...I dreamed quite a few nights. It's kinda nightmare. Da time for us to say goodbye. It's just a little step to reach out...

I cant predict when were we have the chance to chit chat together in our fav venue, "green forest", and cant envisage the opportunity for us to have our meals jointly. I don't know when will we have the time to hang out together, and I totally anxious to further think about it. Angels, you all really enrolled in my life more than a lot I can explain. I'm used to be with you all. Every nights, I've been seeking for the poignant songs that able to describe our love of friendship, and to ell you all how reluctantly I am to leave you all. It been a long time for me to reminiscent every moment we had together. Know wat? When I'm depress and moodless, you gals pictures really bring back loads of sweet memories to me. You all did cheer my life up without consciousness...

These four years, what I sense is I do changed alot. jasey has learned to be independent, to be stalwart, to be tolerating, and to love and vice versa. Badly, Jasey remained stubborn. I felt so sorry to that. Every moment we spent together, every word from you gals did goes through my mind and underwent interpretation. I learned tons of knowledge from you all. Maybe, for you all, I;m just a miscellaneous gal as others. but, each of you really means alot to me... promise.

Jasey wanna apologize for whatever that I did wrongly for these far. I know sometimes my words is quite piqued, and sometimes I'm quite forcing and pushing you gals hardly. Sorry for all these. Though there is no more chance for me to heal all those holes that I've created, but JaseyJasey will try her best not to mean it anymore. Angels, please forgive me, and I said it sincerely from my heart.

Angels, through this four years, i realize what's the real meaning of friendship. You all are so different from my high school buddies. The strongest bond has successfully nurtured. These are called the pious frauds of friendship. Every jiffy we spent are so incalculable, every jokes is so hilarious, and every tear we shared are so touched and true. Thanks lotz. Jasey really treasure you all.

Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate frienship. For us, friendship is the angels that guide you throughout your life. Viva forever.

Goodbye my dear friends, but yet, you all are so close to be, right in my heart.

With love, Jasey