Abhorrence towards “I LOVE YOU”

I’m an idiot, for spending 8 years to this shit.
I’m such imprudent for trusting every single promise by you. At the end only I found out all are crapz.
Don’t give any promises to me anymore. It’s tiring to trust others but at the end only find out I’m the one being bamboozled.
Sorry to tell Im hurt. For the time being I’ll just slowly pull up the crush on you for these few years. It’s hard though, but I promise I can make it.
I need a rest. A well rest.
I need to focus, yes, only to my career, family and friends.

Thanks god for such a nice arrangement that I don’t need to work in M’sia for the coming months. It’s the best time for me to dumb myself with only career. Amen!

Love, Jasey

Peace. Love. Life

Quit

Finally, I brave up myself to make this decision after 8 days of consideration. I thought I can get through all these, but, I finally realize, Im just nothing and aint strong enough to handle everything.

My fault, for dragging everything. I hate to be in such circumstance. Nobody knows how do I feel, and its useless for me to describe word by words. Indeed, its far beyond words for any description.

Jasey, please stay strong, I know you can make it. But, at the end, I fall. Fall till the deepest hollow, and felt the extreme ache.

Between career and love, I only can choose one?? Yes. I go for career now. I aint a good player in a relationship. Failed in an 8 years relationship is such throbbing. All dreams gone. Nothing is left behind.

“Love is nothing, it’s just a commitment.”

Love, Jasey