Simple is good.
Love,
I never trust others, thus i stash everything on my own... I seldom share my despondency with others, as I tend to bear it by myself... I always wearing a mask in the real world, as I know it will be hurted if i slacken it off... I tend to look down at myself, as I’m lack of confidence on who I am and what I am.... And this, yes, this is the only place, I take off everything on me, and reveal the real ownself...which is the real Jasey...
Browsing through the webs...Seeking high and low. Felt the emptiness in my heart abruptly...Thinking of what to do. Mmm. I did blog years ago right?
I still remember the moments when we playing with the candles to fight agaist the ants at this trunk during the mid-autumn festival...Funny yet childish. It just bring me back to my childhood.
The lil toy for my doggie. She will seek for the golf ball, pass it to you, and ask you to play wif her. How cute.
Finally, I brave up myself to make this decision after 8 days of consideration. I thought I can get through all these, but, I finally realize, Im just nothing and aint strong enough to handle everything.
My fault, for dragging everything. I hate to be in such circumstance. Nobody knows how do I feel, and its useless for me to describe word by words. Indeed, its far beyond words for any description.
Jasey, please stay strong, I know you can make it. But, at the end, I fall. Fall till the deepest hollow, and felt the extreme ache.
Between career and love, I only can choose one?? Yes. I go for career now. I aint a good player in a relationship. Failed in an 8 years relationship is such throbbing. All dreams gone. Nothing is left behind.
“Love is nothing, it’s just a commitment.”
Love, Jasey