Away from the hassles of the real world

It TOUCHES me...so well

2010-11-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

Been playing this song since yesterday in my iTune...

Fall on it during the very first time i got this song...Thanks for sharing the nice song.

Its from Steven Curtis Chapman, "We will dance".

Herewith the lyrics:

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I've watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I've seen the tears fall like the rain
You've seen me fight so brave and strong
You've held my hand when I'm afraid

We've watched the seasons come and go
We'll see them come and go again
But in winter's chill, or summer's breeze
One thing will not be changin'

CHORUS:

We will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We'll spin and we'll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance

Sometimes it's hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each others hearts

Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we're bouncing off the walls
No matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from fallin'

CHORUS

The music will play
And I'll hold you close
And I won't let you go
Even when our steps
Grow weak and slow
Still I'll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we, will dance

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Google it up or find in iTune...i bet you will play it all night long as well.

Love it love it love it! Superb!

This is how the feel of first love came in your mind ;)

And i feel that this song suit one of my fren's ROM shot real much.

Here it goes for Jexter and Wei Wen.

xoxo,

Jasey

L I A N G & C Y N D Y: When I become WE

2010-08-01T20:19:00.001+08:00

Artistic stuffs are always my preference.
Till today, I'm always remorse for didn't take up designing as my major subject for my further studies after the high school.
Thou, I've enrolled myself in Science and Technology field,
but ARTS never get out from my life.
I love to draw, paint, create, conceive, etc.
I even paint the whole wall of room wif my own drawings.
Thou, the interior designer ambition is unachievable,
but, it never stops me from keep on dreaming about it.
Unable to deny, I'm not good or perfect in arts,
but, I hope there's always my very own way for giving rise to something with my own style,
my notion, my philosophy and character.

I've quite seldom to blog due to the tons of works,
but, my sweethearts, aka my angels (besties) reminded me about the fun of sharing the blogs.
To be honest, I seldom read nor write. *wink*
But still, i decided to pick it up again (erm, mayb for this moment),
to share, to speak, in this hidden space.

My latest update of pictures taken which I love the most is for my brother and sis-in-law,
the JUST FOR FUN photoshooting in Bali, Indo.
It's a fun trip with my bro, sis in law, Jie and Samantha.

It's a very owned, so called DIY pre-wedding fun shots.

Don't get it serious, we really do it with pressure-free.

Without proper lighting equipments like pro, without make-up artists, without crews.

Just, 3 of us.

Thou I looked like a lightbulb for these two JUST-MARRIED couples,

but I do really enjoy my own sweet time in Bali.

I'm not a photographer or camera-woman,

but I enjoy taking photos for memories.

Not only for my buddies, but everything, that appears in life.

This is for my Bro and Sis-in-law,

Whos going to have their wedding ceremony in church soon, in Dec 2010.

CONGRATS.

And thanks, for the great opportunity,

for me to learn, to enjoy, and to have fun with.

From posture to lighting,

with a very basic and simple equipment,

for the memory of this great couple.

L I A N G & C Y N D Y .
When I become WE.

xoxo,

Jasey

24. 07. 2010. US. Angels.

2010-08-01T00:22:00.005+08:00

Finally...

US. We meet again.
US. We hug again.
US. We gossip again.
US. We gather again.
US. We playing hard again.

US. With laughter.
US. With sweetness.
US. With warmness.
US. With joyousness.
US. With pleasantness.

I still reminisce that our last met, was during CNY period.

It’s been almost half year for me for not meeting my besties, aka my Angels.

Thou, it’s just a short gathering, but our bonds grow.

I love every seconds I spent time wif them.

This gathering meant alot for us.

Finally 9 of us can gather again. Mei mei from UK is back after more than 500days away from us.

My first ever niece Cheah Chloe. Thanks sis for spending the time with US.

We all are separated physically, after our uni life.

It’s been another milestone for us in our life, to face the real world with challenges.

You gals never know, I’ve slack off my mask whenever I’m wif you.

I’ve nothing to hide.

It’s really pleasing whenever I’m with you gals.

I love you all, real much.

And I pledge, US. Angels, will be FOREVER AND EVER.

Thanks babe Ed for joining us and snap for us wif ur CJE7 :)

xoxo,

Jasey.

Dark Chocolate Addiction

2010-04-05T12:31:00.004+08:00

Owh gosh, I'm so addicted to dark chocolate nowadays!

Yet, special thanks to Ed for the kind supply of dark chocolate in monthly basis :P. I can't defy to the bitter sweet taste of high percentage of cocoa in every single piece of it. Ish...tremendously yummylicious! Superb.

and...I'm marvelously lovin' it.

xoxo,

Jasey

Hunting

2010-03-28T17:37:00.001+08:00

It starts to grow, and it starts to hunt.

I love this simple artwork.

Simple is good.

And simple is gorgeous.

Maybe, i got different mindset and different perception.

That's my life, and my philosophy,

and im trying to use picture to perform it.

Love,

Jasey

Pictures have their words.

2010-03-22T17:19:00.007+08:00

Browsing through the webs...Seeking high and low. Felt the emptiness in my heart abruptly...Thinking of what to do. Mmm. I did blog years ago right?

"Back to basic, be simple", I always bear in mind and speak to myself wif this. Too much things happened simultaneously. My life got a big turn since October 2009. anyhow, I do treasure, every single day I faced, every memories I have. Succinctly, I changed too. In the way to think, to speak, and to act, wisely. At least, I willing to back to simple. Simple means all.

Photography and swimming are what I always do when Im moody. Others claimed that, my pictures have their words. And, mostly are moody shots. Yes my frens, I take pictures are depends on my mood, the memories I wanted to keep, and the feeling I wanted to show. I love photograhy, but, I love to be basics in photograhy as well. If can, how desperate am I to shoot every single moment that I can, just as a record, of my lil life.

Sunday, ppl out there partying, having fun adn enjoying the weekend. Me, I rooted at home, my home sweet home in Sg Petani. And, due to boredom, I went shooting, at my house's back yard. Conceivably, how funny am I. Well, do the shots beneath speak? I'm wondering....

I still remember the moments when we playing with the candles to fight agaist the ants at this trunk during the mid-autumn festival...Funny yet childish. It just bring me back to my childhood.

I always love the bamboos.

The lil toy for my doggie. She will seek for the golf ball, pass it to you, and ask you to play wif her. How cute.

She ignored me...*ish*. One of my doggie, wif kinda weird name from my eldest sis, which is "Feitutu". Becoz how chubby she is when she is young!

Love,
Jasey

Love DC 愛上DC

2009-04-10T13:33:00.004+08:00

Unintentionally, i choose for DC rather than Nike in this case...Here it is!

Love,
Jasey

成長了...

2009-04-08T23:58:00.005+08:00

離開那島嶼的第15天...
我漸漸習慣了這樣的生活.
無可否認, 這是蠻難忍受的.
在臺北的第一,二和三天,
收到他的mail是挺感動的,
讓我不知覺的期待每天得到關於他的消息...
第15天了. 15天裏也只有那6封.
漸漸發覺, 原來期待永遠會帶來失望.
還以爲能淡忘,但愚蠢的我心中永遠都有著那一絲絲的期盼.
好懊惱自己的頑固,堅持與懵懂.
終于,眼淚不再是在眼裏打滾,
而是不知覺的墮落.

慣性背叛...我終于醒悟了...

Love,
Jasey

Abhorrence towards “I LOVE YOU”

2009-03-22T02:02:00.003+08:00

I’m an idiot, for spending 8 years to this shit.
I’m such imprudent for trusting every single promise by you. At the end only I found out all are crapz.
Don’t give any promises to me anymore. It’s tiring to trust others but at the end only find out I’m the one being bamboozled.
Sorry to tell Im hurt. For the time being I’ll just slowly pull up the crush on you for these few years. It’s hard though, but I promise I can make it.
I need a rest. A well rest.
I need to focus, yes, only to my career, family and friends.

Thanks god for such a nice arrangement that I don’t need to work in M’sia for the coming months. It’s the best time for me to dumb myself with only career. Amen!

Love, Jasey

Peace. Love. Life

2009-03-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

Quit

2009-03-03T14:04:00.001+08:00

Finally, I brave up myself to make this decision after 8 days of consideration. I thought I can get through all these, but, I finally realize, Im just nothing and aint strong enough to handle everything.

My fault, for dragging everything. I hate to be in such circumstance. Nobody knows how do I feel, and its useless for me to describe word by words. Indeed, its far beyond words for any description.

Jasey, please stay strong, I know you can make it. But, at the end, I fall. Fall till the deepest hollow, and felt the extreme ache.

Between career and love, I only can choose one?? Yes. I go for career now. I aint a good player in a relationship. Failed in an 8 years relationship is such throbbing. All dreams gone. Nothing is left behind.

“Love is nothing, it’s just a commitment.”

Love, Jasey

True fren is more precious than everything

2009-02-25T16:13:00.005+08:00

Time flies...

After two months of training in Taipei, I do really learned a lot. Not only technically, yet, mentally. My thought for everything have changed recently. Nobody knows.

Took an off day during last weekend, trekked down to town to meet my buddies. Yes, Angels! Those I miss the most, those I treasure the most, and yet, those I appreciate the most. Thanks angels for the wonderful gathering. Do really thankful for everything.

Things come to worst when I get back from the town to the island. It miffed yet hurt me badly. Can’t have a nice sleep during the nights, tears are the only companion.

I don’t want to know more. I’m so stupid for being fooled for 88 days. It’s anguishing. The soreness is unbearable. What should I do.

Just came bac from Taipei for a week. So many things happened at once. Exultant to disconcert. Both totally contrary feelings came within 2 days.

Gals. Wake up. I always believe that love or relationship is all about TRUST. But, tis time, its hurt because of trust. I give up already. I’ll wait and see how’s the scenario goes. Waiting, still my only way to solve everything.

Be patient, serene and stay strong.

Love, Jasey

Happy 牛 Year~

2009-01-26T17:09:00.002+08:00

Standard Operating Procedure

Happy Ox Year!

This is kinda fresh experience for me, at the beginning of a new year in lunar calendar.

Yup, the first time, Im celebrating new year away from my family, and yet, ALL ALONE!

Yesday, joined my colleague’s in Taiwan for the reunion dinner.
Having a reunion dinner togheter wif other family is cool. Yet, it make me feels wanna bac home.
Yell! Yes, I want and I wish to be home. But, It sounds so impossible over here.

The beginning of a career is always tough, as wat im facing now.

This is the second trip for my training in Taiwan, and last training shawl my Christmas away from me ><. This? No more new year, and no more V day. Sux!

Yet, wat to do? Tis is life.

Anyhow, ill never think and expect much from this new year, but, good health and good career path will do. This journey is fun, yet interesting for my future pathway. Do my best

Love, Jasey

She's sweet!

2009-01-08T14:32:00.004+08:00

Im here to boast about this lil gal, CHLOE again! Yet, she owned da wallpaper of mine and her grannie’s mobile! Im thinking…her grandpa will soon requesting and begging for this cutie’s pic! Hahahah. Lovely and idyllic! Congratz to my eldest sis, Katie and bro-in-law, Jerry again! her grandparent nonstop mentioning their granddaughter throughout da day! owh...they love her more than everything TOO!

Little babe named CHLOE

2009-01-06T09:42:00.002+08:00

Finally finally, Im upgraded to another rank, though it sounds old to baptize, but yet, im really pompous abt it. “AUNTY JASEY”! Yup, I got my very very first NIECE in my life! Owh, congratz to my eldest sis, Katie and my bro in law, Jerry for their first had born daughter, CHLOE! It’s the first babe in my Ong family, which is wat my parent desperate of so far. Yupz, they love Babe sooooo much. Such repentant as I don’t have the chance to get down to the town to visit my niece due to my work. Oh yeah, Im back to Malaysia after the 30days staying alone in Taipei. An adventurous trip though, as everything didn’t have prior plan when I’m there in fact. Back to the story, I’m really really proud of my sis and bro in law for the babe, she’s soooooo CUTE! *wink wink* But yet, as indicated by the elders, it is better to use the reverse phrase to praise a new born. Argh, how dare you want me voice out those ugly words then to the cutie, Heartache! Frankly, I don’t love kids, but im sure, this CHLOE, shud be the first babe that I’ll pamper of! I LOVE HER! Big and sloppy kiss to the lil cutie, CHLOE!

臺北美食

2008-12-21T00:24:00.008+08:00

來到臺北，當然不可放過當地的美食。不知不覺，來這兒實習已有三個星期了，心中有許多的不捨，但也有未知的快樂。不捨，必是這兒熱情的人民，這兒涼快的氣候，還有，當然是這兒多麽和我口味的美食咯！很感激，賜我這寶貴的機會及拆選我的人。雖然，我只是個小小的學士，也沒有豐富的經驗，也沒有那豐厚的知識，但，我想，我不會放棄現在所得的，也不會令看得起我的人失望吧！行，我行的！雖然來到臺北，最擔心的應該是我最愛的吧－Daddy and Momsy. 他們還專程飛來臺北探望我這小女兒，很感動！Thanks dad and mom. Love u both always, and yet, the deepest! 以下為一部分在這兒享用的美食。　雖然不是每到都很讚，但，還過得去啦，除了那泰國餐！超遜的 ><

波記茶餐廳－不錯哦，值得一試～

來到臺北，豆花是我的最愛，因爲有QQ的粉圓，喜歡那口感..

甜不辣...有點像馬來西亞的釀豆腐噢...

大腸棉綫, 那大腸入滷得夠入味, 很有嚼勁, 但那面綫就蠻平凡的...

辦完事后, 一路咬著這牛肉咖喱胡椒餅來填飽肚子. 蠻好吃的...

淡水老街的老店, 招牌排骨飯, 排骨有入味哦 !

另一個餐點－豬腳飯, 不過我不愛吃油膩膩的豬腳啦(雖然那是膠質)

離宿舍不遠的豬腳專賣店的炸雞排, 味道好好噢! 出乎意料!

燥肉飯, 超不愛的, 因爲全都是油漬漬的肥肉!

唯一最喜歡的, 應該是滷蛋吧!

還以爲山雞很嫩, 哪知那肉是硬趴趴的, 味道也完全不辣...臺灣人不吃辣哦...

這山豬肉很好味道, 終于有好吃的了~

云仙樂園的套餐....

炭烤的噢, 有鮮甜的醬搭配, 很好吃!

失望的泰國餐- 好酸, 但一點都不辣... ><

失望的泰國餐- 東炎湯, 還是泰國的讚多了...

失望的泰國餐- 只有鹹味, 沒有酸也沒有辣, 好怪噢!

失望的泰國餐- 唯一一道吃得下的...簡單的辣炒空心菜

一個人用餐時, 我鍾愛買這鐵路便當, 蠻不錯的! 食尚玩家推薦. 不過排骨的滷得比較好味.

一個人的臺北日記- To be continue...

Love, Jasey

Taipei is soooo gorgeous!

2008-11-30T13:27:00.007+08:00

This is the first time i travel to Taiwan alone for my training of my newly started career. I'm so impressed by the citizens of Taipei! They're so helpful and friendly! When I've just reached Taipei International Airport, the driver that drove me all the way from "tao yuan 桃园" to 台北市(taipei city) got a long chat with me, introducing Taiwan to me since I'm first time traveling to Taiwan. How nice is him! He lent his hand on me, giving me idea where to buy my sim card, how to get Mrt here etc. Yet, my company's colleague, who's my boss's personal assistant is such a great lady!! I love taipei instead. Though i know ill started to become busy from today evening, but, I do really enjoying the days here. Lov da weather, ppl, food, everything. Taipei, a great city! Herewith some of the pictures i've taken within these 2 days. Thanks 祥云 real much for introducing Taiwan, and yet, she's sooo dazzling! I really have a great days before starting my hell-like training here. :D

Upon my arrival to Taipei. The view is so nice even looking from the plane. oh. a great art.

My first meal when im here. 臭臭锅, da little steamboat. Thanks 祥云!

祥云's niece. such a cute cute gal~

Taipei 101. Finally Im able to get here~

Da night view of Taipei 101. different from the "jagung" aka twin tower of M'sia.

The street artist, 街头艺人

Anyway, I did feel guilty as my mom cried upon our departure to the airport. Im such bad to let my mom worry about me. sigh. Thanks mom! Loving you! Yeah, they're coming to visit me on next weekend! *happie* Hugz, dad and mom! Da best parent in the world.

Love, Jasey

一个人的孤岛

2008-11-27T15:33:00.008+08:00

一个人的孤岛
我那漂浮在海中央的帆船还不知去向
回到一个人的生活真的很不习惯
说真的我忍受不了我哭了哭到累了
真的希望你就出现在我眼前

好想念好想念
平常打打闹闹的日子
如今是多么的平静
在一个人的车里一个人地奔驰
一个人的房子一个人的世界
那天你离开的第一天我哭到累了
我睡不着闭上眼脑子总是浮现令我感到寂寞的一切
我知道你很担心但我真的我不住泪水
抱歉让你操心了

现在我终于了解我是多么的害怕寂寞
以前在大学的日子
我是多么的独立多么的倔强
但回来北部后我的依赖性漫漫地萌生
也许这是我该铲除掉的恶习吧
不知何时变得那么的小女人
总爱往那庞大的胸口鑚
总爱往那大大的肚腩捏
总爱往那有力的手臂将我抱起
也许是因为身旁没有朋友的陪伴
没有一个懂我的朋友
我是否该好好地了解身旁的每一个人
不要再反锁自己了吧

未来是未知数
我不懂一个人到台湾的生活会是怎样
也不懂何时我会到那岛屿去　何时再回来
朋友问我 “你不怕吗？一个人吔”
说真的　我蛮害怕的
因为　不一样的世界　不一样的国度
不一样的人民　不一样的生活起居
唯有慢慢适应　
唯有一步步地学习
我会坚强的毕竟我也好想挑战我自己
As usual, JASEY IS STALWART!

Love, Jasey

Halloween in the ayer

2008-11-04T15:36:00.003+08:00

It’s time for a zany night, for the celebration of Halloween! Such repentant as I never go for any Halloween party wif my uni buddies (Yeah, *Angels!*) during our schooling life. Such a waste! Since I’ve back to the north after done my degree in KL in June, Penang island is my first choice to start my career here. Mmm..Though still in the soothing stage of my new job (after resignation from my prior company), I hope to be busy soon (maybe Im stupid to have this kind of thinking? Dumb dumb...*but its kinda soporific!*). okay, yup, how was ur halloween night? Anyhow, I never met any police checking in any parties so far. This is the first time I experienced it! It killed the mood for party instead! Owh...Poor things!

All the contestants for the costume competition...such eerie! I almost cried when they keep on approaching us just to get a vote...hahha..

The champion for that night, with the theme of "Abortion". Salute!

Wendy and HH, perhaps, da Ju on?

Police: Guys to the left..gals to the right..lelaki kiri perepmpuan kanan..
Ah gua: How about us....
Police: Tengah tengah la...
Look at the sadako (贞子,さだこ)...sitting there waiting innocently during the police checking..haha.a funny scene.

yet, the party continue though all of us are moodless already. mm..just to finish our chivas then. :D.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

If you understand chinese characters, please read this site: http://baike.baidu.com/view/344700.htm. absolutely hilarous!

Sweet memories... 回忆

2008-10-30T11:02:00.008+08:00

Schooling life is usually the most pleasureable moment. Now I grasp about it. I enjoyed my uni life real real much. I get genuine frens, true frens there.
Heavenly father, I believe in Angels, the kind that heaven sends. I'm surrounded by angels, but, I call them friends. Thanks god for the angels around me. In Jesus Christ name I pray. Amen...Thanks gals. The memories always right here in my mind, heart and soul. *Hugz*

Year 2004

during our mouse dissection practical class..argh, i still able to recall the smell of the ratz!

Year 2005
The circle of life

Year 2006
Gals that addicted to Korean cuisine..haha. Since year 2006, korean restaurants in Ampang started to become our dinner spot! Yeah, we love food, the great one!

Year 2007Right after our final year first semester examination..Having fun again while celebrating the angels' birthday. Look at the word. That's da name our lecturer gave to us - A.N.G.E.L T.E.A.M :)

Year 2008

The most memorable moment. Year 2008 is the year we having alot of tears due to our separation, and this is so called the True Friendship. Miss u gal real much!

Bear in mind that: Friendship is the angels that guide you throughout your life.

The lovely creation for the movie Friendship. Love. Angels. Yeah, we have the quote, our movie, our trailer, our team-T and song for our FRIENSHIP!

Love, Jasey

呐喊

2008-10-29T15:52:00.009+08:00

此时此刻，心中有许多纳闷，
好想一次过好好地抛开。
自己的无知与懵懂，单纯与傻气，
导致我恨我自己。
一切的误会，我不想给予任何的解释与借口。
由得它去吧。
好懊恼哦！好恨如此狼狈不抗，
好恨自己不知如何开口。
算了吧，累了，倦了，也哭了。
好想眼前有一大片蔚蓝的海洋，
让我畅游；
好想眼前有无限的啤酒，
让我暂时忘了一切，饮个痛快；
好想拥有自己的空间，
让我不必躲着痛哭。
回到现实吧!
未来由我改变，我必实现我的梦!

人的记忆并非如电脑般，
按了删除一键就可忘了一切。
珍惜眼前所有的，爱你所爱的。

I'm always strong!

Love, Jasey

A long night

2008-10-28T09:32:00.000+08:00

It’s been quite a couple of weeks since my last post about my life, my thought and my emotion here. Sigh. Time passed. Everything changed in such a short period of time.

A long night. It’s true. Yesterday night is such a protracted night for me. What I can say about yesterday? Tears, suffers, unbreathable, insomnia, loneliness. All these five words can be depicting the whole night. I’m speculating how come the tears always drop in at night. Thousands of words I wanted to share, but i always failed to find a good listener. I hatred myself for don’t even want to share a word with others, even my closest wan, which is my family. Sigh. I’ve been locked everything to myself for years. That’s why, the night is constantly long for me, as I need to cram the holes that found in it.

I hate when the dusk arrived, as the sun is hidden, the mask is slacken off. My dear angels. U gals don’t know how much I love you and miss you all. During the school life, you gals always be there for me, and give me a hug whenever I need it, without any reason. Now I’m all alone, and I don’t even can find a sincere friend from current life. As usual, I’m still always with a smile on, having own sweet nature. But, heartache. Promise myself, I want to be more independent from now on.

YES, I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE!

Jasey - Life changed -

Annoying things to do on an elevator

2008-10-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh..I read about this in a website recently...and i cant stop amused by the words there...have a look guys....!

Annoying things to do on elevator:-
1) crack open your briefcase or handbag, peer Inside and ask "Got enough air in there?"
2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting off.
3) when arriving at your floor, GRUNT and STRAIN to yank the doors open, then act as if you're embarrassed when they open themselves.
4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you Admiral.
5) MEOW occasionally.
6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: "You're one of THEM" - and back away slowly
7) say -DING at each floor.
8) say "I wonder what all these do?" And push all the red buttons.
9) make EXPLOSION noises when anyone presses a button.
10) STARE, GRINNING at another passenger for a while, then announce: "I have new socks on."
11) when the elevator is silent, look around and ask: "Is that your beeper?"
12) try to make PERSONAL CALL on the emergency phone.
13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other passengers: "This is my personal space."
14) when there's only one other person in the elevator, TAP them on the shoulder, then pretend it wasn't you.
15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back for more.
16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.
17) HOLD the doors open and say you're waiting for your friend. After a while, let the doors close and say "Hi Greg, How's your day been?"
18) drop a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then scream: "That's mine!"
19) bring a camera and TAKE PICTURES of everyone in the lift.
20) PRETEND you're a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and exits with the Passengers.
21) SWAT at flies that don't exist.
22) call out "Group hug" then enforce it.

Have fun!

Love, Jasey

Not to be enthusiastic, but scrutinize carefully

2008-10-07T01:28:00.000+08:00

22nd of July, 2008 - Tuesday

Life changing, when the status of a "children" to "adult", same as from "student" to an "employee". Stepping into the society make me be taught alot, and on the other hand, make me be au fait with myself more. I know about my weakness since young, and sometime, my weakness also my forte. Stubborn. Yes, definiteyly I am. Stubbonr to get what I want, stubborn in studies to achieve best results, stubborn in making everything brilliant. I hate the word of "lose". That's Jasey.

Since young, I've strong assertive in winning whatever I intended to. I still remember, in kindergarten, I get the third place during my exam, and my mom said this, "Good work, but try harder to get the second place next time". From that on, I've disciplined myself in studies. I'm neither a bookworm nor booklover, and just putting effort prior to exam. To my amzement, I still able to maintain it. Because of what my parent said to me in kindergarten, I've tried whatever I can, in arts, in story telling, in essays, etc etc.

After high school, I've been confused for choosing the field to further my studies. Design or Science. Since I'm the only child among the siblings who take science line in high school, of course my parent hope Jasey to be a "sciencetist". Okay. obey it. 4 years of studies in KL make me grew up alot. I did put much endeavor, and at last, I get the rewards. Greatful. Even my family also glad for what I've achieved. But? Result doesn't mean anything. i realized when study life defunct.

Stepping into the society is a totally different thing that I've ever met in my life. Before deciding to quit my studies, I ever think to furthe rit abroad. But right after I've graduated. I learned. In this moment, I started for my career to gain some experience before furthering my studies in next few years. I've been employed by a good company, as my superior does really take care of me. Though my division of the company is new, but I do get pleasure from it. My superior share so many things in her life with me. She never forces me to limit myself in the company for the whole life. Contrary, she asks me to gain experience here, and when the time is right, she encourage me to explore the world. THat's a good idea, instead. I still ever think, after my degree, I should further to master, then phD, and lastly, become a lecturer that can earn alot. But, do I really enjoy in giving lecture? Nope. Definitely nope. I hate teaching. That's why, I'm aware now. I know, become a lecturer will gain wealth, But, I grasp, I wouldn't enjoy such life. i dont have the passion in teachin, but i love to do researches. That's why, at last, I've make up my mind. Even though I've no idea how long I'm going to work in the company, but at least, in this moment, I'm in it.

As stated, not to be ethusiastic, but observe every step. Observe yourself, what you want, plan for the future, and at last, make the best decision that's available. I cant say that my current decision will be the best, but, at least, I'M NOT REGRET, and I'm enjoying. That's the best way of life. Isn't it?

Love, Jasey -Be strong, be firm-

Always be here in my heart

2008-10-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

5th of April, 2008 - Saturday

This is specially dedicated to the angels that escorting my life in these 4 years...Chooi, Chris, Hoey, Mei, Mun, Ru Shan and Ying....

It's been 4 year since our first met. Though it sounds abit long time ago, but everything happened just like within few seconds. I cant force the time to halt, I cant pause it, and I just can do nothing...da sadness in my mind, da sorrow that I felt, the loath in my heart, and damelancholy that accompanying me for this few days...I dreamed quite a few nights. It's kinda nightmare. Da time for us to say goodbye. It's just a little step to reach out...

I cant predict when were we have the chance to chit chat together in our fav venue, "green forest", and cant envisage the opportunity for us to have our meals jointly. I don't know when will we have the time to hang out together, and I totally anxious to further think about it. Angels, you all really enrolled in my life more than a lot I can explain. I'm used to be with you all. Every nights, I've been seeking for the poignant songs that able to describe our love of friendship, and to ell you all how reluctantly I am to leave you all. It been a long time for me to reminiscent every moment we had together. Know wat? When I'm depress and moodless, you gals pictures really bring back loads of sweet memories to me. You all did cheer my life up without consciousness...

These four years, what I sense is I do changed alot. jasey has learned to be independent, to be stalwart, to be tolerating, and to love and vice versa. Badly, Jasey remained stubborn. I felt so sorry to that. Every moment we spent together, every word from you gals did goes through my mind and underwent interpretation. I learned tons of knowledge from you all. Maybe, for you all, I;m just a miscellaneous gal as others. but, each of you really means alot to me... promise.

Jasey wanna apologize for whatever that I did wrongly for these far. I know sometimes my words is quite piqued, and sometimes I'm quite forcing and pushing you gals hardly. Sorry for all these. Though there is no more chance for me to heal all those holes that I've created, but JaseyJasey will try her best not to mean it anymore. Angels, please forgive me, and I said it sincerely from my heart.

Angels, through this four years, i realize what's the real meaning of friendship. You all are so different from my high school buddies. The strongest bond has successfully nurtured. These are called the pious frauds of friendship. Every jiffy we spent are so incalculable, every jokes is so hilarious, and every tear we shared are so touched and true. Thanks lotz. Jasey really treasure you all.

Thus nature has no love for solitude, and always leans, as it were, on some support; and the sweetest support is found in the most intimate frienship. For us, friendship is the angels that guide you throughout your life. Viva forever.

Goodbye my dear friends, but yet, you all are so close to be, right in my heart.

With love, Jasey